Better Left Unsaid

i met this gurl unexpectedly. why unexpected because im not cool with the idea of "eb". still, i went and we met. by that time she helped and changed me a lot. she helped me picked up the shattered pieces of my heart without her knowing that while she's holding the last piece of it, it already beats for her like it already knew where it belong and like it found a new home.

what a girl! so sweet and simple with extraordinary attitude. (0h! i remember that writing to her cyber account.)
but what happened lately was; (excerpt from their conversation)

lady: are you in love?
guy: yes. with you.
lady: when was your feeling for me started?
guy: since the first time we go out together. me opened myself and so are you. but i only knew my feeling is real when i was not able to cast it off.
lady: maybe that was only an attraction and not love.
guy: okey. my feeling started ever since i let myself to open up to you. ever since the ringing tone of our telephone seem like a music when i expected your call. ever since your prescence encourage me to pick myself up. ever since you make me sweat times two than any ordinary day or situation. ever since i saw you in that mall wearing that see-through blouse. ever since you tell me your definition of what is blouse and what is a t-shirt and ever since you made me watch a tagalog movie that even my closest friend can't persuade me two and most of those were my first time but i enjoyed it like they were my favorites.
how i wish that i can do better like the rest of your suitor but im no expert when it comes to this. so, it is just me telling you the facts from my heart.
lady: i won't believe it. i can't believe it.
guy: why won't you believe me. what can i do to convinced you that everything i said is true.
lady: i won't believe because i haven't seen the things that you said.
guy: you didn't see? or you merely not able to notice it... now, you make my head spin. i don't know anymore, what to do with regards to this.
lady: regards to what?
guy: this! following my heart withourt compromising my work. you want it concrete, right? and i can't do that while im still in this situation. maybe there is but it is so limited. you know, its too much of you not to notice a single significant event of what we've done. how bout me remembering each and every detail of everything we did. isn't that a hard facts?
lady: anyone can remember that... honestly, i forgot the movie title we watched. what was it again?
guy: santa santita.
lady: .... uhm... do you know that i already have a boyfriend now.
guy: huh! ah... okey... you may neglect everything that i said. i don't want to ruin your present relationship. i think it is hard for me but i think i can bear the thought of without you in my side but i can't bear the thought of you unhappy by my side.

lady: don't you know i was waiting for you? i think the waiting is long enough thinking you had a feeling for me but its like waiting for nothing. why just now?
guy: after everything i had been, i thought i'll never "fall" in a year or two but i was wrong because i fall in love with you.

this happened yesterday, september 11, 2005. before this post was published the guy and the lady had a 3 minutes conversation through phone. the guy can't helped but felt in ecstasy despite of what happened.