Better In A Distance
they say it is true that "if you're in love with someone there is a tendency that you forgot to love yourself". i don't know, maybe yes or maybe not... it work to others that way but to me? i don't know how it works(self-pity eats me).
from the very moment i met this girl i really wanted to be friend with her but god knows more than anyone present at that time that i wanted more than friendship..... days and weeks passed grabbing each and every possible chances to spend time with her and to know her better.... more weeks passed, there is a change of menu in the conversation and have a more intimate recipe added mixed with the insensible topics.... no second thoughts with regards in talking of problems with each other and become more comfortable with each others accompany. i never felt as close as a friend to anybody else than with her. the mere prescence of her is already a comfort whenever i feel i am in the bottom part of the world. a few days after that i feel like taking the friendship into another plateau i like my love, care and understanding for her to be recognize with more shades of color but i don't know how and there are lots of "what if's" boggling on my head.... one day she told me something i didn't know yet, something that really stabs straight in my heart.... sobbing, she said that they have this big fight with the person she loves and that she feels like ending her life is the solution to end her misery... on the next day i send her a message that whatever happens i am still here that loves, cares and understands her. this time in a platonic way and when she said that she knows and it goes the same with her...
it really feels great knowing it and its like a thorn pulled from my heart...
if i can't be the sun that shines in your day then let me be the moon that illuminates light in the darkness of your life's journey.
i know moon looks better in a distance, no craters.
